15 art students, all sitting down at a big wooden art table. You know, those thick "butchers block" wooden tops with cast iron legs that could support seriously heavy-duty workloads? Back in Fall 2009, all 15 of us sat down empty handed, but with heavy hearts and a very serious topic...
When it comes to being an artist, we'd all like to think we have support. From our friends, from our family, and even ourselves, which can often times be the most difficult to find. On this very serious topic, a girl bursts into tears, "I just want my family to realize this is what I want to do!!" and then the stories spill forth from the mouths of just about every artist sitting there, and no dam could have stopped the dramas from flowing. Each story, from one to the next, with an air of familiarity. Some of us were encouraged to go into teaching because "we might not make it as artists." Others were told to go into fields where there are "more promising jobs" and of course the awful "you can't make a living by being an artist."
As I sat here, speechless, I was glad to think I had support from my family. Whether or not they really understood my directions with art at the time or not, I guess it didn't matter. But I understood their frustrations.
As an artist, it's hard enough convincing ourselves that its all going to be worth it in the end.
The hardest thing to overcome is getting over your own self-doubt. I couldn't expect anyone to take me seriously if I didn't take myself seriously. When I first entered the art program, I never took myself seriously. Never, not once. Not until I actually started having fun with what I was creating. Then I thought to myself "hey, I want to do this for a living!". The flood gates opened again. How can I make this a career? I can't make an honest living doing...art! Those who can't do teach right? Right?
I stopped listening to myself. And then I really really REALLY started listening to myself.
After that, I listened to the ones that
mattered. Professors, other students, and other artists that HAD made it.
Sitting there at that table, we all got it. We all understood this. But on some level we wanted outside support from someone saying "Yes, you can do this. You are not weird or strange for thinking this is a perfectly viable career and you will succeed."
But we all know that never happens.
We get stuck with the furrowed and confused brows, the slow disbelieving nods, and of course those silly suggestions of "other options to fall back on."
People don't get it. Plain and simple.
Joe the Plumber isn't famous for what he does. He's not featured in a magazine nor seen on TV. Half the population isn't pining for his mastery. Yet he makes an honest living and you've never heard of him. He is his own boss working a job he created for himself. No one questions his decision for being a plumber.
An artist should be no different. Why is it suddenly hard for people to understand that we don't
take jobs... we
make jobs. We make it for ourselves, because no one else can. And that is really hard to do. Any idiot could fill out an application and
get a job. I could get a job. But I don't want a job. I want to be happy, and what's so hard to understand about making some money
and being happy?
It's a slow start to get to where we want to be. Some days its just not happening fast enough. There's a lot that needs to be done well before that glorious swap of craft for cash happens. And until that money starts rolling in, we're gonna have to live with those crummy day-jobs. No it's not glorious. but it makes-do. We understand that the one's in our lives just want the best for us. And maybe they want a little bragging rights too, because what parent or grandparent doesn't like to talk about how awesome and successful their children are? But please know...this...takes...time. And in due time, this will be the best thing for us.
Otherwise, we could just be the 99% sitting on the side of the road.
I choose to do something.